Failed Expectations

Everyone was excited,

… the most famous minister in our denomination was visiting for revival.

One of the deacons said it was time to acknowledge my calling and step forward for prayer.

I wanted to, but I was scared…

What if God wasn’t calling me?

What if I was too young?

I sat frozen in the pew as the message ended and he called people forward for prayer…

That’s when it happened,

I stood up and the preacher didn’t feel to pray for me.

I was crushed…

If you’ve ever felt rejected, you know the feeling…

I tried to shake it off, but it felt like “God” had rejected me in front of the whole church.

That wound of rejection would fester into a very dark and challenging season in my life.

When I was 17, about a year after my father died, an insurance salesman named Alvin visited our home.

Somehow I ended up traveling with him to Washington, DC…

It’s crazy when I think about it now, but it turned out to be the divine intervention that saved my life…

I’ll tell you about DC in another message…

Right now, I want to talk to you about that “moment” in your own life.

We’ve all had it happen…

An expectation fails,

Life knocks the wind out of you,

Someone hurts you.

Most recover, a lot of people don’t, and many more secretly carry the wounds for life…

Whatever it was, it’s time to let it go.

Forgive.

Heal.

Find a way, YOU are worth it.

I remember reading years ago, “There is within every adversity the seed of equal or greater benefit.”

It’s true.

You might have to look closely to see it… it might take time to appreciate, but it’s there.

Several years ago, the strangest thing happened…

I literally came face-to-face with the preacher I told you about at the BWI Airport…

I’d just flown in from a speaking engagement and there he was, standing right in front of me…

I was surprised that such a famous and now controversial man would be standing on the curb at a busy airport, alone.

I’ll never forget his eyes, the saddest and most troubled look I’d ever seen.

I remembered hearing on CNN that he had left our denomination, renounced Christ, and joined another religion.

I thought I’d be angry, I wanted to be angry, but I wasn’t…

I felt deep concern, humbled, and grateful to God.

We both simply stood there, looking into one another’s eyes, a few seconds that seemed like forever…

I wished him well and got into the car waiting for me.

There’s a line in the movie I’m doing right now about how a “failed expectation” is sometimes God’s way of putting us on the path we are meant to be on. Never more true than in my experience with Ben…

Ben, if by some miracle you’re reading this, God loves you. He has never changed His mind about you. I sincerely pray that you will know and fully experience the richness and power of His love for you.  Blessings to you, from a grateful son.

I hope these messages are helping and encouraging you… it’s a big risk opening up this way… most people never do.

And thank you for all the comments, emails, and text messages, hearing from you is a great encouragement.

See you tomorrow…

Humbled by life,

Ramon Williamson

P.S. If you have forgiven something big in your life, share this post with the word “forgiven”…

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