My Secret Struggle

There's a secret,

… most people don't know about me:

I've felt torn most of my life, between a calling to the ministry and my work in business.

You ever felt this way, torn between what you feel meant to do and what you think you have to do?

It all began with a spiritual experience at age seven…

I remember it like yesterday…

I still don't know how to explain it, but the encounter awakened me somehow, and let me with a deep sense of knowing what I was meant to do…

The feeling was terrifying and wonderful all at the same time.

It's never left me…

I would become a public speaking champion by age 9, by 15, state vice-president in one of the largest youth organizations in America and by age 25, paid to speak to audiences across America.

I was 13 when it happened…

The moment that left me so deeply wounded, I almost never recovered…

People ask me all the time, “how can I know that I have been called to something?”

Ever see that movie, The Matrix?

There's a scene where Neo is talking to the Oracle…

He asks her how to know if he is the one.

She responds:

“I wanna tell you a little secret, being the one is just like being in love. No one needs to tell you you are in love, you just know it, through and through.”

That's how your calling is.

You just know, through and through.

Then you must answer it, apply yourself, and develop your gift until you become skillful…

The thing that happens is that most people let something or someone talk them out of their knowing…

Sometimes that someone is themselves.

Or they table their dreams in favor of the “practical.”

I wanna tell you a little secret, God has not changed His mind concerning you.

You may be looking at your life through the filter of your failure, lack of this or that or your circumstances, but He still sees you exactly as you where always created to be, beautiful, loved and called in your weakness to make your difference in the world.

Do you believe it?

It's time to answer your calling.

It's time to begin developing your gift.

It's going to take time, it's not going to happen over night, but it will happen… even if it's only one thing you can do, just 30 minutes per day, now is the time to get started…

Remember, God's delays are not God's denials…

It begins with you saying “Yes!”

Say yes.

With love and respect,

Ramon Williamson

P.S. Tomorrow, what happened when I was 13 and the man who saved my life…

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